Daily Reflections

July 10, 2018 This morning was quite a depressing and eye-opening day. I sat staring at my computer screen looking over the same document and same design circuits I have been looking at for the last 5-6 months. I realized that I no longer have any interest in the project I am working on, I have no motivation to make sure it is successful and I am not happy at work. I was literally just staring at the computer screen as my eyes went in and out of focus of what I was looking at. I have no personal grudge or objection to my current or past managers, but I believe their behavior and attitude of how they should treat young employees is misguided. Last Friday, we had a dry-run of our deep dive presentations with my old manager. One of my co-workers was on a rotation program and she will be returning to the group on Monday. During her presentation, my old manager grilled her the whole time. "Do you know anything about your product? Is your [lack of knowledge] because the design infor...

June 14, 2018 I just got the great news that my Master's Degree in Electrical Engineering has finally arrived! This is a huge accomplishment for me as it has taken me 3 years of hard work while working a full-time job at the same time. As a reflection on this, I feel as though a lot has changed in the last 3 years. I have achieved much greater confidence in my technical abilities and I feel as though my new knowledge will keep me competitive for many years to come. Previously, I would always feel intimidated or incompetent in front of co-workers who had already been working in the industry for many years and also have higher education degrees. However, it is not logical for me to compare myself to these people. Some of them would even "test" or "challenge" me to demonstrate my knowledge even in group meetings in front of everyone else! Why would they resort to such demeaning and passive aggressive behavior... In any case, I find that the way I carry myself a...

Hello, I wanted to start this blog as an online journal of my reflections on life and my thoughts. There is no fixed schedule to this blog, I will update it with posts when I feel the need to write down my thoughts. Hopefully, I can share this blog as a forum with family, friends, and others as a way to reflect on their own life and to start discussions about topics that are presented here. On to the first post! ----------------------------------------------- I've decided to start this blog today as I have been having somewhat of a pre-mid-life crisis. These feelings of distress and the need to write down my thoughts ultimately stem from my increasing stress at work and contemplating how I want to plan my life for the future. Do I enjoy my job? Do I enjoy working for others? Am I making an impact on the world? How can I work on things I am passionate and care about while at the same time preparing a financially stable life for myself and my family in the future? What am I e...